despite vance and i being overly stressed, sleep deprived, and having a week full of ups and downs we realized in the quiet moments holding lane in the glow of the Christmas tree that we are blessed beyond belief and God has a (huge) plan for our little family. it's hard to be discouraged when you have a smiling baby looking into your eyes. lane has given us more this Christmas than any gift ever can give by just being him.
"and it is, after all, a season for babies. it makes sense to me in a new way that God chose to wrap his divinity in baby bones and baby skin. i always thought maybe it was to demonstrate vulnerability, or to identify fully with each phase of humanity, but now i think it was something else. i think it was because babies make us believe in the possibility and power of the future. it's genius that the Christ, the Messiah, came as baby, not because of his helplessness, but because of the possibility every baby holds. we have a regular baby, a non-Christ, non-Messiah baby, and when i look at his sleeping face, all the world seems NEW and POSSIBLE."
-shawna neiguest "cold tangerines"