kindergarten.

wednesday was lane's first day of kindergarten.

it is something that we've known was coming since he was a tiny baby but seemed so extremely far away.   and then suddenly, it was here.

we i  have am agonizing over lane's schooling.   i know that its only kindergarten, but this stage, the PREschool, age is over.   when we moved to colorado i was shocked at how much drama other moms put on schooling and i swore i'd never be that parent.  (growing up everyone just went to your neighborhood school & it was great.)   and then,  it happened.  i am so that mom.   i won't go into drawn out rambling details of my thoughts but for right now we are where we are and are praying for direction & peace with each decision we make for each of our chidden &  our family.   (although, i will say, i considered not letting my child out of the car his first day.)   man, growing up is hard!

hello high-waisted shorts & dorky shoes!

gage would be right by lane's side all day, everyday, if he had his way.

we were all good walking in outside.   and then we entered the doors of the school...he put on the BRAKES!  like, wouldn't move.   we had to drag, push, carry him to his class.   AND, mama had a big oops...i put him in the wrong color uniform shorts (so they made him change...other parents did the same.)   and he didn't like that, at all.   

this is how he was the whole morning we were there.   oh my heart, i can't even look at this picture without tears filling my eyes.   one of the secretaries saw how rough the start of the day was for lane and reassured us that she'd check on him throughout the morning.   about an hour into school she called and said she had checked on lane multiple times and he was smiling & happy as can be.   deep breathes, and then i started crying again.   

 at pick up...they did a running embrace to each other.  "my brother!!!"  i wanted to jump in & say, "me first."

 the 2nd day.  MUCH better.

 and this is how i left him.  smiling & looking at books.   i looked at this picture every 10 minutes till i picked him up.

 and today, friday!!!   the first thing he asked at pick up, "mom, do i have school on satrudays" ...nope..."oh good, because i am tired!!"

so he made it and says, "everyday just keeps getting better!"   i adore that big boy of mine!

...in my first day of school crying, i told vance, "i'm already dreading first grade and him being gone all day."   he told me to stop getting so ahead of myself.  :)