a year ago.

-a year ago today...i was nearly a week overdue and didn't realize i'd have ten more days to go. today...i can't believe in ten days i'll have a one year old.

-a year ago today...i slept in late. today...i woke up to a smiling baby with a dirty diaper.
-a year ago today...i got to wear pants with elastic waists. today...i wish it was socially acceptable for me to wear pants with elastic waists.
-a year ago today...i was readying "ina may's guide to natural childbirth" today...i'm reading something about being a positive mom.
-a year ago today...i googled "natural ways to induce labor" (all of which i was too scarred to try) today...i googled "natural diaper rash creams"
-a year ago today...i got a pedicure with my mom. today...i miss my mom.
-a year ago today...i washed some "little baby's" clothing. today...i pulled lint out of lane's mouth after he decided to eat the dryer filter...

-a year ago today...i thought i'd be pregnant with "this" baby forever. today...i miss being pregnant.
-a year ago today...i woke up multiple times to go use the bathroom during the night. today...i woke up to go check on lane in his sleep.
-a year ago today...i daydreamed in blue and pink. today...i daydreamed that lane would take an afternoon nap.
-a year ago today...i drove with the music loud and windows down because it felt good. today...i drove with the windows down and music loud because lane thought it was fun.
-a year ago today i didn't know all joy that TODAY would be!
...but i still miss my mom.