Friday, January 27, 2012

it's a great day.

oh what a week its been, what a month its been. i know we're going to look back at this time in our lives and its going to be one big blur. it already is. sigh. i think having a third baby wiped out any short term memory i had left...and the pain medicine stole the rest this week. my thoughts are on a constant roll of which side logan ate from last, answering hundreds of questions from lane, and trying to figure out what word/sentence gage is trying to communicate. sometimes i get frustrated at the mundaneness of life but really, i wouldn't want it any other way. the other morning while (seriously) laying on the operating room table (before surgery), i was SOBBING (yeah, i was a bit of a mess...) to vance how i just wanted this all behind us, how i wanted these next few weeks to be over so i'd feel better...and then i'd start crying b/c i felt like i was wishing my kids days away and its not fair to logan that i'm not feeling good on her newborn days. (mom guilt is the worst!) but i'm not....i LOVE these days. i love the squirmy baby in my arm who's making me type this all with one hand. i love the three year old little boy who is refusing naps and that one year old who charms me with those big eyes everyday. whenever i hear this song i can't help but smile...its a great day to be alive. these days might be rough, better ones are coming, the suns still shining.

our every nights. baby days sure are precious.
we had envisioned baby #3 being a boy and that gage and boy #3 would eventually share a room to give lane his own "older" room. not so much anymore...pretty sure logan will always have HER own room, unless she has a little sister someday;)


THREE kids.
mama's heart. don't think i can put it into words how much i missed her during the 24 hours at the hospital. my arms felt so empty, they ached. it hardly seemed fair to her, that we weren't there, that i couldn't nurse (yes, she had plenty of my milk stored up in the freezer) her but i had to remind myself over and over that i was doing this for them too. our family's quality of life of being affected by ME not feeling good. and already a few days out...i feel GREAT!! so much better than before, praise the Lord! *side note, this might awkward but its my favorite/best new product. if your looking/needing a way to save breast milk for your baby...you need this. it's awesome!
always, always in someone's arms.
the boys loving coloring on the windows:)

first bath at (almost) 3 weeks. (our kids take forever to loose their umbilical cords.)
big brothers were RIGHT there to help.

my typical attempt at getting ready in the morning.
baby feet!
daddy's home.
:)
2 weeks old and her first dress.
really kids, is it too much to ask to get a picture all together?!
they boys will play & play with these little gel beads.
but beware, your floor will look like this.


goof!
she LOVES bath time, instant soothing.


lane wanted to sleep ONLY in his boxers one day. it cracked me up. (and yes, gage was wearing them in previous pictures. oh well!)
gage loving logan.
logan's obviously not so sure.
a few weekends back grandpa & grandma reimer and heather & ryan came for christmas, a few weeks late. as always, the boys were overjoyed to have them at our home.


listening to carols on the computer before opening up the huge amount of gifts.
logan's evening hangout.
brothers. oh how i love them. they are starting to play together so much more. gage pretty much does whatever lane tells him to do but he doesn't seem to mind, he wants to be just like him.
bedtime.
lane doesn't let ANYONE touch his beloved blankie. but he puts it on logan all the time b/c "she cold mom."

grandma gwen came out for a week and half. (to help while vance was out of town & then during surgery) little miss LOVES her grandma AND we love her being here!!!

RED hair!!
sweet gagers.

4 weeks old and starting to get a personality. yay for happy babies!! (just don't come to our home from 7-11pm...fussy fussy!!)

she was born sticking out her tongue...she still does:)
little girl has been extra patient this week with me in our attempts to get comfortable while nursing. you c-sections mama's out there have a whole new level of respect from me, ouchie!



mornings are the best!




and yes, he has a sucker in his mouth before breakfast. sometimes i'm not up for a battle. clearly, he won.
well look, it must be 10pm.
and happy again the next day.



lane brain.
home sweet home.

1 comment:

Jenni Lynn said...

Celine, I always love reading your posts! It is hard not to be emotional after having a baby, I mean you have had very good reason to be, but the hormones definitely play a role in the "mom guilt." i feel like I have "mom guilt" like every other day. Oh, where to you get those gel bead things. And Maya is refusing nap time now too, maybe her and Lane should hang out and refuse it together.
I am so glad you are feeling better.